Maybe this was all pretend

Sunday 11.28.2004 05:54PM

It's one thing to feel yourself growing apart from another
  unable to make it stop

It's quite another to suddenly realize you're already apart
  not knowing why it happened or how

It leaves you with a million questions
  a million answers could never fit to

Do you remember when you thought you saw me?
you shouted my name
and we embraced

I remember when I first heard your voice
you said so very little
and I felt inadequate

Do you remember when we first met?
you were three feet close
and endlessly distant

I'm trying desperately not to care
  and failing miserably

I sought for why I still care
  the answer was not that I ought to

Not even that I wanted to
  the answer was simply because I do